Today I am frustrated, with what you ask well where do I start???
1. my weight
2. my looks
3. me
Well I have been dealing with PCOS since I was 17 but only diagnosed since Nov.08 since then I have lost 30 lbs the gained it back. I have cut my hair short because the meds made it fall out unevenly. I have been removing the facial hair that comes with this condition for so long that each time I do it it makes me very upset but then I get upset that the hair keeps growing back and that it needs to be removed, I have started this new meal plan and it sucks because I cant get on track with it. I have to lose 85 to 95 lbs and it seems impossible. I have a good support system but I just feel helpless. The doctor claims that my condition will keep better if I can manage to lose the weight but when ever I lose any weight it seems like if I eat 1 thing I am not suppose to I gain every single ounce that I lost right back and then some.THIS SUCKS SO BAD. I would love to lose the weight get healthy eat the right things and feel like a normal 33yr old woman. Instead I am overweight have high blood pressure and barely have enough energy to make it thru the day.
As the spring approaches I look at all the nice clothes that are being displayed all the cute little bathing suits that are being sold. I feel like another summer will come and I will be wearing tank tops and capri pants with some sort of a cardigan. But i wanna wear cute dresses tank tops shorts and bathing suits.
AHHHHHH, I am so FRUSTRATED.
